Zyler Meets His Shea

Today was a joyous day. I got to meet Zyler again after one year of giving birth to him. I got to see his mom and his dad also. Me and my sister Kisha, accompanied by Arielle and Shanquetta met them at Bush Airport. It was hard tryin to find them, but me and Jea stayied on the phone while I tried to find them. As to my suprise they were one floor above me. I went upstairs and while on the phone seen Jea pushing Zyler and Chris holding the car seat that the airport gave back to them instead of checking it in. I ran to them and Gave themn the biggest hug. Zyler was asleep. We met up with Kisha, Ari and Brownie. And the picture taking began. I was playing with Zylers feet and he woke up. His first take to me want that good. (I didnt take offense) He was sleepy and only wanted his mama. When we got into the car, he stared at me the whole way ti I-Hop. I mean just gazed at me, and I couldnt explain that feeling. When we got to I-Hop, thats when Zyler came out. He was so playful and babbled and played with me. I couldnt believe, this was the boy I gave birth to last year. He has grown sooooo much. Maybe he stared at me because we look alike, or maybe because he knew I looked familar through pictures. He played in his pancakes and strawberries. And took some handfuls of mine..lol More picture taking began. He gave smile after smile and even went to Brownie and Ari. He even played with Amir, doing the monster voice. Just to look at him was good enough for me. He even gave me kisses. I was trying so hard to hold back my tears, cause as my fellow birthmom Desha said, I should LIVE for this day. Save my tears for later. I enjoyed today sooo much. We took family pictures outside of the I-Hop, and Chris gave me a copy of his growth chart...The top of the NORM...lol He's a growning boy I must say. Then It was time to head back to the Airport. I didnt want to cry, but I did.I wanted all of them to saty longer, I wanted to saok more Zyler in. But as My Jea said, this is one of many visits to come. Portland here I come...I love sooo much that I got a chance just to see them, To hug them< to hold Zyler...This day has no words to explain how I felt or feeling right now...til later

Happy Birthday Zyler Kendall James!

Today is the day! My Zyler's birthday. Its a bittersweet time, but he had a blast! His grandparents came in from Kentucky and they seemed to enjoy him a lot. I wonder what will it be like to meet him at the end of this month? How will he take to me? I'm so nervous and anxious to see him. I have made it a year! And I'm proud of myself. I have been feeling sad but its to be done. The pain and heartache is the price I paid for others happiness. And I would do it a thousand time. Happy Birthday to you! I was lonely today, I had to spend it alone and it seems on your b day I will be alone too. Your in my heart always.

Its your day.......son
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A year ago....

One year ago today, I was waiting to meet the couple i picked for my son. I met them at my favorite restaurant and we began our lifelong bond. We swapped pictures and Chris
told stories. Jea told me of her nanny experience and about a special lil boy she keeps name Will. Christy had to leave but we went to the beach and walked and talked some more. Chris went to go see if he could find a cap, while me and My Jea talked. Walking on the beach and being there was a great time. Before we left I gave them a card with the ultrasound of their soon to be son, and by the look on Jea's face, she loved it. We spent that day at the beach and getting our toes done. Jea told me about where the name Zyler (Zieler) came from..(g. granma) and her WORST DATE EVER!!! And believe me it was. All during that time, Zyler was moving around. Then we made our way to Wal Mart..(my fav place) This is where Chris discovered my passion for the color Blue...LOL Then we made our way back to my dormitory. I had to stay at a high risk facility. But the whole day was wonderful and I wouldn't change it for the world...