August 3 2010

I know im late for this but i had so much on my mind that i couldnt even think about what special day it was. Zyler has turned 2 and it was momentus. I spoke to Jea and i heard him talk in the background. he is getting soo big that i cant believe that hes 2. Steven turned 6 today and i couldnt even be with him today. I had shed my tears and cried so much that it hurts. Im goin through so much right now and not enough support that it makes me wanna just give up all together. But i know that i cant because i have kid depending on me. But what happens when i cant depend on myself. Who can i turn to? Zyler is one happy little boy and he maybe getting a sister or brother real soon. i hope it goes well for them cause im so proud of them..and they are of me

Approaching 2

Iknow it has been a long time since writting in here, but Zyler is appraoching 2 soon. I has been two years since seeing him. And its been a rough but great road. i have done very well for myself. I sometimes wonder what would life be like if i woulda kept him. But i see the smiles on his parents faces. All the people who came in contact with him too. hes a special little boy. To everyone! He has gotton so big since i seen him last year. Im just speechless everytime i see him. He's even talkin now. Jea told me the good news of gettin him a brother or sister. Im so excited for them, time flies so much and then you wonder, where did the time go? Until his birthday...

August 3