New Beginnings

Well I ha e been so behind that its sad but I have some good news. In June I will be flying to Portland to see my extended family and I'm so excited. I get to meet Jakey Trey and enjoy a nice vacay away from all the drama that has happened. I'm counting the days until June 5-11

Today is Gotcha Day for Jea and Chris...meaning that They are now a family of 4...Jakey Trey is now theres...its such a great day for them...

ZYLER TURNS 4

WELL I feel bad i havent been keeping up for you bloggers out there, but Zyler has a brother now!!! His name is Jakey Trey and hes 5 months now..Hes the most cutest lil boy ever! And Zyler is really enjoying being a big brother. But Zyler is now 4...CAN YOU BELIEVE IT??? I cant... Its been four years since giving birth to him, not trying to get attatched. I let Jea and Chris spend the most time with him. I knew i wasnt going to be able to bring him home with me and it hurted. I cried my eyes out when i got home. My mother wasnt a great support. My other two kids didnt know why mama was crying or where was the baby that was in my tummy. But Jea made it easy to talk to, to call, to text, to email. And for the people i met along the way..I thank them for being in my journey Keri Laura Desha Cindy...my birthmom bud happy birthday zyler

2012

Well hello,

I havent been on here lately but so much is going on i dont know where to begin. But i will share this news with you guys. Zyler is now a big brother to a healthy lil boy name Jacob. They went to Kentucky to go and bring him home. They had some red tape to get through since adoption laws are different there. But everything has cleared and now they are parents to two boys. I couldnt be happier for them they are so great and deserve this.

Ending of 2011

well this year has been trials for me, but i couldnt be happier for My Jea and Chris...they are in the process of adding another Modderman. Thats exciting!!!! and Zyler couldnt be happier..Hes such a happy child, love his cousins and haves too much fun.. I couldnt of made a better choice for him. My butterfly they gave me when i gave birth to him, came up missing and HURTED ME DEEPLY..still dont know who, or where it went to. I got a package today.... :-)

Happy Birthday Zyler!!!!

well im very late...yes i am Zyler turned 3 on Aug 3. And i got a chance to speak to him. He's soooo cute when he says my name. My other son, his brother will be 7 tomorrow. I have to keep this short, cause of my hand. im working with only one hand and its so hard typing. But here are some pics of the family...enjoy

Easter Basket....

Well it seems like each time i look at him, hes getting bigger and starting to look like the other person should i say. I have found that other person and its sad to say, he looks like him. And i choose to block all that is him, because of the lies, lies, and more lies he and his fam has told. So i will continue to keep Zyler where he needs to be. Maybe when hes older enough to understand he will know. But Zyler is 2 now and just such a Lil man. Jea sunt me a video and he said my name. He sounded sooooooo cute. Sometimes i watch it over and over just to hear him say my name. Even though we don't talk as much as we use to do, i like our relationship. It keeps me sane, not to be as i was in the beginning, but I'm thankful for the relationship we do have. Chris went to Kentucky to see his dad, hes fighting cancer. From what i hear, hes doing good!!! Sending prayers to Kentucky!!!!!